The sun will shine again.

We decided that we wanted to try to conceive this past month, as soon as a stopped taking my birth control pills. The cycle was a bust, but I decided this afternoon that I really am okay with it. I would have ecstatic to be pregnant so soon, but I know that I will get pregnant when I am supposed to be. We will be moving on to a 2010 baby, which will be fun. It will be hard to forget how old our child is, and it will give us a little more time to get ready.

Ben is excited to be a daddy soon, he has been asking questions, and has expressed interest in reading books about pregnancy. He has even bought a few things for the baby all on his own. I think he finally has realized that you can’t put off having children forever, and is finally okay with the fact that there is never a time when you are 100% ready to have a child, there will almost always be things that make you worry.

I am doing everything that I can to prepare for pregnancy, childbirth and raising a child. I have almost completely stopped drinking soda. I drink between 6 and 10 servings of water a day, and am eating fairly healthy. I am researching a lot of things that I have had concerns about, and learning a lot of new things.

Today is CD1 of cycle 2, and I am confident that things will happen when they are meant to happen.

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In other news, my wedding dress has been ordered, my reception venue booked, my ceremony site booked, the wedding rings ordered, dj booked, photographer mostly booked, food taken care of, and the invitations ready to be printed.

I still need to get center pieces, print, assemble, and address the invites, get shoes for the bridal party, finalize things with the photographer, get accessories, grooms suit, cake, cake topper, flowers, etc. 

One Crisis at a Time, thanks.

I don't know how this is going to go. I've lived "on my own" for almost 2 years. I lived with my Aunt for a year before that.

Now my dad is going to be moving in. It's the best thing for all parties, but it is still going to be a change. 

We just got done talking about how the house isn't big enough for the two of us and three cats, so now we are going to add another adult, and another cat. Then hopefully a baby next year. 

Granted, we started talking about the baby thing before we found out my dad is moving in. Yes, we could wait, but the Inseminator isn't getting any younger (he is 30, has a heart condition that means surgery in 10 years). 

The bright side is, we can put a bedroom in the attic. My father will have his own space. And we will have a nursery. 

But, we will have to buy or build a house in the next 3-ish years. 

Guess life can get in the way of all plans, but luckily we have wiggle room.